whee !
maths tuition just ended.
and im free agn (freedom).
lols. i can solve most of the maths equations,
under the supervision of my tutor.

whats the point then?
but at least i can solve them.
after all, i understand those stupid laws alr.
happily. im a happy happy girrl.
lalalaa.

theres run tmr at the nie track.
for sec1 and 2s.
i really hope tht moree ppl will attend, and be on time.
after all, we've all made our promises to mr bulb.

the c'div tournament is coming soon.
im really vry scared.
i dunno if we can make it this time?
we only have a month left, and i dun think we can do much within a month.
but we all do our best.

you go girlos!! stc hockey c'div rockss.

and im dying to watch jersey girrl.
i think it'll be a great show.
but i guess i'll only watch it after the mids.
haix. thts still quite longg frm now.
i cant wait to watch tht. arghh.

thts bout it. i shall stop here.
im gonna start on my lit notes tonight.
so tht i can learn tmr.

so yeahh. takkairee`
cyas sweetss arnd.
-hUgGs

uremovingonbutimstilldwellinginthepast.
+uoyssimi//.

arh wells.
im tired.
and im really tired.
i need to s l e e p.
but i dun have much time for sleeping though.

but its the starting of mids tmr.
its the first paper, english paper.
okays. im quite well prepared for eng i guess.
nothing much to study for tht though.
i just cross my fingers and hope tht i can rmb the format for formal letter.
then i'll be quite safe.

ohs wells.
the rest of ther others mains are coming on real soon too.
starts on 10 may onwards.
haix. time flies, half a yr has past, and its the mids agn.

mugg, mugg, mugg and still mugg.
thts all we can do now.
we've got so much to study, yet so lil time.
tsk, tsk, tsk.
thts damn sadd.

im gonna catch a lil sleep now.
and mugg in the night.
(secret plann)
-gRiNs

i'll be b o r e d at night, so anyone who's also planning to mugg
or who's gonna mugg, pls gimme a call or smth.
then we can keep each other awake and acompany each other thru the dark. tht sounds a lil romantic though. lols.

here's a lil shoutout to all those who're mugging for the mids`

heyy people. time flies. the mids are here agn. i noe we're all dreading this, but we still have to take the exams. sad case. but cheer up. we're all going thru this together. and life still have to go on. its not really the end of the world yet. though exams really kills. wahaha. its a lil wierd to see charissaaa having such positive attitude towards exams leh. better be happy. lols. and this is espcially to all hockey girlos. studay hard, and do well for the mids kae. and rmb our de-centralised trngs. we've got to keep up to our promises for tht too. alrightt? so yeahh. thts bout it. s t u d y h a r d everyone. and rest well. god bless.

there is no problem to big, God cannot solve it.

boohoo.
just reached hme.
went to the visit the doctor.
cause ive got a swollen toe.
and i can walk properly.

i dunno whats up with my silly toe.
it just start to swell up ystd.
i dun even noe whats happening to it.
and i got worst today.
i had no choice but to see the doctor, which i totally dreads.
the clinic smells yucky. eekksss.

i actually wore my sch shoes to sch this morning.
but i brought slippers, just in case i need to change into them.
and during science lessons, i couldnt stand it anymore.
cause it was hurting like crazyy.
so i had to change into my slippers.

and sasha and zhiyi are mean and maybe a lil retarded.
they claim tht my slippers are un-chio,
when they're like so superr chio.
and superr bimbo. hahas. thts just for me.

and the worst thing today was.
the maths re-test on inequalities and simultanous equations.
oh goodness. mr ng says tht the paper was easier then the previous test.
but, whadaheckk. i think its even worst.
and i couldnt do arnd half of the whole test kae.
im bound to fail agn this time. anticipated.

i realised tht im lagging behind time like madd.
i no longer have time to slack anymore.
i really need to mugg like crazyy.
and i might not even make it if i start now.
i think its a lil too late.
but starting now is better then not starting/starting later.

my worst subjs are: maths, history, chinese and science.
thts like practically all the most important subjs.
and its not like i'll fare quite well in the other subjs like eng or lit.
haix. i think i'll pray for the lucky stars to be with me.
for the last, and the vry last time.

i really need alot of luck, to do well for the mids.
okays, maybe not do extremely well, but at least pass.

so yeahh. i shall start mugging now.
i must put everything aside and studyy.
i must. i can. i will. i MUST make it.

takkairee ppl.
study hard. and do well.
lovelove`

iveputdownmyprideillbeafoolforyou.

ohs wells.
i just woke up frm sleep.
im not studying.
mm, okayss.
maybe i shld say: im not studying yet.

i dun seem to be getting into the mugg-till-i-die mood yet.
i cant seem to focus on the preperations for my exams.
and im lost somewhere, which i dunno where.
im thinking of rubbish and i dunno what to do.
i dunno what im doing.

i think im dwelling into the past,
im thinking of all the things tht happened in the past.
and i cant put my mind down to study.
theres smth in my mind tht i want to figure out.
but i dunno whats tht smth i want to figure out.

plus all the promises ive made to many ppl.
my frends, my teachers, my parents, and myself.
and if i dun do well for the coming mids,
i'll be letting down many ppl.
and ive got great consequences to bear.

its damn confusing.
i dun understand anything.
all thts happening, seems like a drama serial.
i didnt want it to be so happening.
i mean, its interesting, but it can get pretty cranky at times too.
further more, im not a drama mama.

i didnt noe growing up can be so wierd.
i didnt noe we had to all go thru this to be called grown ups.
i think theres a purpose of being called a grown up.
its like telling you tht uve graduated.
frm being a teenager, to a adult.
thts called a grown up.

arh wells.
i noe ive been talking crap up above.
ive got no idea what im talking about.
thts whyy i say.
growing up is the most confusing part of life.
growing up is the point when we're most vulnerable.

i shall take things positively, kust as ive told others to do tht.
although life can sometimes be sadd.
love can be pain, fate can be cruel, destiny can be bad.

but life will still go on, with or without you*

ohs wells.
today's a tired day.
i feel so sleepy throughout the whole day.
i guess i didnt haf enough sleep.
and enough food.

i felt damn drained after p.e today.
before p.e, i had morning run in the before assembly.
all hockey girrls has to run, you see.
no escaping.
cause tournament is coming, right after the mids.
and we much needed to train moree on our physical and stamina.

okayss. lets talk bout p.e, the highlight of the day.
i swear tht p.e today was the most intersting one ever.
we were doing gymnastic for p.e.
and we were all trying to balance on each other,
and trying to form a pyramid in our grps.

forming a pyramid in our grps was fine.
tht was quite easy to be done.
not much of a trouble.
we did it after two attempts.
it wasnt tht easy in fact.

but the most fun thing was the end of the lesson.
mr eric wanted us to form a CLASS PYRAMID.
lols. it was damn funny.
cause we all had to do this as a class.
and it wasnt easy to balance everyone together.

but we did it in the end.
it was really funn. and so funny.
it was damn cool. totally.
it was a class effort after all.
so i shall conclude tht:

2 saint bernadette kick ass. whee!!

rightio. and now its time to stop here,
and go and sleep.
im superr tired like i said.
and i shall wake up and study laterr.

so yeahh. takkairee ppl.
tata !

God's grace puts me in awesome wonder.

here's two songs we sang during church service today,
tht preetty touched me.

the first song is called:
He will carry you

There is no problem too big
God cannot solve it
There is no mountain too tall
He cannot move it
There is no storm too dark
God cannot calm it
There is no sorrow too deep
He cannot soothe it

* If He carried the weight of the world
Upon His shoulder
I know my brother that He will carry you
If he carried the weight of the world
Upon his shoulder
I know my sister that he will carry you

He said come unto me all who are weary
And i will give you rest

_______________

the second one is called: God sent His Son

God sent His Son, They called Him Jesus
He came to lov, heal and forgive
He gave His life, to buy my pardon
An empty grave is there
To prove my Saviour lives

And because He lives, I can face tomorrow
Because He lives, all fear is gone
Because i know, I know He holds the future
And life is worth the living just because He lives

____________________ *

these are two such beautiful songs.
they just touched my heart.

there's no sorrow too deep, God cannot soothe it.

take all tht hurt away from your child, God.

whee !!
its sunday today.
went to church (like duh)
gg to church every sunday is the normal routine.
i find it wierd not going to church.

eh, i dun mean following the same routine agn and agn.
i wasnt forced to attend church every sunday.
but i willing attend it with a thanksgiving heart everyweek.
in fact, church has been great support for me till this point.

my pastor, my teachers, my mentors, my frends.
were all of great help to me till this day.
and i lovee going to church.
i WANT, i WANT, i WANT to go to church everyday.

arh wells.
sermon was quite spiriture and encouraging.
it made me realised tht im one great sinner.
but god still so loved me.
it made me feel damn guilty of all tht ive done.

i feel like a bitch.
but god has accepted the way i am,
and he wants to give me another chance.
he's already given me many many chances.
he havent gave up on me.
for god so loved me.

i noe tht he loves me.
and i love him.
and he will always love me.
and i will always love him.

ohs wells.
im getting crappy.
thts bout it.
tata !

`let it go. god, take away all tht hurt frm me.

im bored.
charissaaa`s BORED

today's a BORING day.
i got nothing to blogg.
i feel like crap now.

my life is in a mess.
a total mess.
fuck.

boohoo.
todayy was preetty much worser than yesterday.
got back my maths test.
and i flung it once agn (as usual).
i did horriblely. eekksss.

ohs wells.
theres got to be moree to life.
i shant bored overr tht.
i shall just try harder.
yeppers.

i skipped music lesson today, together with:
alyssa. brenda. joanne. michelle and kylie. yupp.
cause we went to help ms ng with the speech day decorations.
and it was damn funny.
i laughed till i almost passed out (as usual).

we were suppose to carry 4 pots of palms to outside of the auditorium.
yeahh. carry pots of plants.
it sounds quite easy. but it wasnt tht simple aftr all.
all of them who carried the plants suffered frm face irritation.
the leaves of the palms were all scratching all overr their faces.
and it was damn itchy for them, and joanne even tasted it.

eekksss.
but charissaaa didnt carry the plants.
she was just standing arnd and laughing at how stupid they looked.
at all their expressions when the plants were irritating their faces.
haha. totally. damn funny.
aye. enough of laughing at them.

oh yeahh.
and todayy's family time and assembly period was cool.
they invited some local dance grp.
called 'ah hock and frends'
mm. it sounds quite cheena, but its not.
in fact, i find it quite cool.

okayss. there were four dancers who came to perform today.
they performed at the auditorium.
those dancers. those dancers.
tsk tsk. tsk.
they're damn flexible.

super superr superrr FLEXIBLE.
the way they dance and stretch was like woahh.
and charissaaa is so so so vry jealous of them.
but she's nvr gonna get flexibility like tht.
those dancers have been dancing for 10 yrs.

the whole thing was really nicee.
and i guess it was cool too.
hehh. sme moves they made were funny.
and it was quite funn watching.

tmr is the annually speech and prize giving day.
so called 'theresian awards day'
brenda and i are representing 2b.
guess its gonna be quite boring.
mm. i only look forward to see all the concert items.

and im suppose to go to sji with samantha for some catholic thing.
arghh. okayss. i shall be nicee and go with herr.

so yeahh. i shall stop heree.
thts bout it.
i need to use the toilet. hehh.

takkairee.
lovelove`

ohs wells.
todayy is quite a happy day for me.
havent reallyy been so happy for quite a longg time.
few reasons whyy charissaaa`s feeling so happy today.

-she scored 23/25 for herr sci test.
-she knew most of the ans to herr history test.
-she only ate a light lunch and nth else.
-she went for hockey trng.
-she didnt gt tempted by brenda, carolyn and ruth to eat macs (she just stared at them blankly and perhaps helplessly?).
-she climbed the 22x2 flight of stairs backk hme.

uhh. thts bout it.
i think im crazyy.
getting happy overr such lil stuffs.
but im really glad to be backk trng.
in fact. i MISSED my hockey trngs alot.
and im finally backk now.

it feels so good to be playing in the pitch agn.
and i feel damn nicee when im feel so hot.
its like im burning agn.
i used to hate tht last time.
cause i feel damn dhydrated everytime.
but today was different. damn wierd.

oh yeahh.
class was damn funny and interesting todayy.
especially furing sci lesson.
veena is superr funny.
you could haf just died looking at herr and listening to all the lame things she says.

she suree can sayy the lamest things uve everr heard.
she was playing with herr tube of glue.
and leilani pushed the glue to herr face.
and the glue stick smashed into herr spects. haha.
and she screamed (as usual).
she took out herr spects.

and she couldnt see anything (lols).
damn funny.
she was making a fuss and complaining to the class.
bout glue on herr spects.
and she told us a story.

it goes like this.

there was once, leilani went to herr hse.
they were playing or smth.
and leilani suddenly pushed veena to the wall.
as a result, she broke herr spects. hahas.
and she had to make a new pair (the one she's using nw).
and it looks damn ahma-fied.

she was complaining and whining bout all the harm leilani does to herr spects.
it was totally lame. and superr funny.
especially the sight of herr trying to clean the glue off her spects.
i laughed till i wanted to puke.
i swear tht veena can be one of the world's greatest joker.

anyways. hai-
mid yrs is coming.
eng paper is next friday.
and ive only 2 wks plus to my main papers.
this is getting so irritating.
i hate exams.
they suckk. eekksss.

no point whining bout hafing exams.
everyone goes thru tht after all.
at least we're all suffering together.
ive started a lil on my revision.
but i think i can do better.

uhh huhh.
thts bout it.
shall end heree.
cyas arnd in sch, ppl.

sleep tightt, rest well.

thtisthewaysheflies.

ohs wells.
todayy is quite a happy day for me.
havent reallyy been so happy for quite a longg time.
few reasons whyy charissaaa`s feeling so happy today.

-she scored 23/25 for herr sci test.
-she knew most of the ans to herr history test.
-she only ate a light lunch and nth else.
-she went for hockey trng.
-she didnt gt tempted by brenda, carolyn and ruth to eat macs (she just stared at them blankly and perhaps helplessly?).
-she climbed the 22x2 flight of stairs backk hme.

uhh. thts bout it.
i think im crazyy.
getting happy overr such lil stuffs.
but im really glad to be backk trng.
in fact. i MISSED my hockey trngs alot.
and im finally backk now.

it feels so good to be playing in the pitch agn.
and i feel damn nicee when im feel so hot.
its like im burning agn.
i used to hate tht last time.
cause i feel damn dhydrated everytime.
but today was different. damn wierd.

oh yeahh.
class was damn funny and interesting todayy.
especially furing sci lesson.
veena is superr funny.
you could haf just died looking at herr and listening to all the lame things she says.

she suree can sayy the lamest things uve everr heard.
she was playing with herr tube of glue.
and leilani pushed the glue to herr face.
and the glue stick smashed into herr spects. haha.
and she screamed (as usual).
she took out herr spects.

and she couldnt see anything (lols).
damn funny.
she was making a fuss and complaining to the class.
bout glue on herr spects.
and she told us a story.

it goes like this.

there was once, leilani went to herr hse.
they were playing or smth.
and leilani suddenly pushed veena to the wall.
as a result, she broke herr spects. hahas.
and she had to make a new pair (the one she's using nw).
and it looks damn ahma-fied.

she was complaining and whining bout all the harm leilani does to herr spects.
it was totally lame. and superr funny.
especially the sight of herr trying to clean the glue off her spects.
i laughed till i wanted to puke.
i swear tht veena can be one of the world's greatest joker.

anyways. hai-
mid yrs is coming.
eng paper is next friday.
and ive only 2 wks plus to my main papers.
this is getting so irritating.
i hate exams.
they suckk. eekksss.

no point whining bout hafing exams.
everyone goes thru tht after all.
at least we're all suffering together.
ive started a lil on my revision.
but i think i can do better.

uhh huhh.
thts bout it.
shall end heree.
cyas arnd in sch, ppl.

sleep tightt, rest well.

thtisthewaysheflies.

im beatt.
todayy was a longg day in sch.
sch ended at 2.15pm as usual.
was supposed to haf maths supplementry.
but it was cancelled.

so we went to do our art work.
we so had to complete it by todayy.
cause the deadline was tmr morning.
everyone was rushing the hell out of themselves.
and smth damn funny and stupid happened.

cyber lodge was in a total greatt mess.
everyone was talking and screaming at the top of their voices.
i was blasting tata young. sexaye. naughtyy. bitchyy.
and at the next lab, mr lee or smth was conducting webpage designing lessons.
he found us vry irritating.
so he came overr to give us a piece of his mind.

and oh gosh.
he sounded like total gay kaes.
and he waved his hands as he talked.
everyone was holding backk their laughter.
after all, he was like scolding us.
then when he stepped out of the lab.

smth crazyy happened.
the lab sort of like EXPLODED.
it exploded with all our laugher.
it was reallyy damn loudd.
cause the wayy he scolded us and the way he looked was damn funny.

then all of a sudden.
he stepped in the lab agn and screamed at the top of his voice.
he said tht we didnt respect him.
and he chased us out of the lab.
everyone had to leave immediately.
whadeheckk.

but a certain teacher with a kind soul gave us permission to go in the lab agn.
but we had to promise to be quiet.
and we manage to complete our work. just in time.
its like woahh.

but i swear tht it was damn funny.
you could haf just died laughing there.
totally.

uhh. and i dont think im gonna slp tonight.
cause i got so much assignments to be completed.
i dunno if i can complete them.
ive to draw my art piece and paint it.
and i still got a 4 chpt history test.

D-I-E

i think i better get going and start on my assignments.
hope tht everyone can complete their assignments.
and catch some slp tonightt. at least.
and i need some coffee now.

so yeahh.
thts bout it.
takkairee`

sowhatifithurts.
causeyoudontevencareanymore.

God's grace puts me in awesome wonderr.

sometimes i wonder if im walking alone in the dark.
sometimes i wonder if im falling into a dark hole.
sometimes i wonder if no one understands me.
sometimes i wonder if no one cares bout me.
sometimes i wonder if i could just die the next moment.

sometimes i feel so lost.
i feel tht my world is falling.
i feel tht my life is worthless.
i feel tht life has no meaning.

but at the darkest point of my life.
i see a light somewhere.
i see a spark of hope glowing.

God havent forsaken me.
though im such a sinner.
but God is still with me.
God is still leading me thru.
he kept his promise tht he will nvr forsake me.
and he was there when i needed him the most.

God's grace and mercy is always sufficient for us.
his mercy and grace is beyond the decriptions of words.
God's love is everr so sweettt.
its everr so truee.
it speaks nothing but truth.

God is Good. Praise the Lord!!

rightio.
todayy was preettyy bad.
woke up with a sore throat.
was feeling reallyy dehydrated in the morning.
but i guess im fine now.
thank god. i thought i was dying.

ohs wells.
im reallyy happy with myself.
cause at least i did smth constructive.
i didnt waste my time away.
i did 2 chpts of history notes kaes.
whaha. it was under the influence of carolyn though.

but i did it myself.
which means tht im a great too.
charissaaa` the greatt?
thts being too ego -laughs
or ratherr.
charissaaa` is a good girrl.

whheee!!
whooppeee!!

uhh. i want to skip p.e class tmr.
so im gonna ask mummy to write a letter to excuse me.
againn~
mr eric was preetty muchh vry pissed last week.
cause i came w/o a letter to excuse myself.
so i hafta get a letter to excuse myself tmr.
and pray tht he wont be pissed.

i shall end heree.
im tired.
and i need a rest.

__________`charissaaa loves you*__________

*cheerios*

on lovee`

some people think tht lovee is blind,
but i think lovee is beautiful.
everything and everyone can feel lovee.

birds, humans and animals
-all living creatures needs lovee.

lovee is the sweetest thing.
lovee is smth tht is beyond descriptions of words.
lovee can be anything you want it to be.
lovee makes the world go round.

lovee can hurt too.
lovee means letting someone you lovee go.
lovee means tearing when you think about the past.
lovee means hurting urself and always thinking of the best for someone you lovee.

lovee is a choice.

on lovee`

some people think tht lovee is blind,
but i think lovee is beautiful.
everything and everyone can feel lovee.

birds, humans and animals
-all living creatures needs lovee.

lovee is the sweetest thing.
lovee is smth tht is beyond descriptions of words.
lovee can be anything you want it to be.
lovee makes the world go round.

lovee can hurt too.
lovee means letting someone you lovee go.
lovee means tearing when you think about the past.
lovee means hurting urself and always thinking of the best for someone you lovee.

lovee is a choice.

i found this somewhere.
and i found it quite cutee.
it might sound contridicting.
but heree it goes`

teenagers.

they waer clothes too tightt.
they wear clothes too bigg.
they have funky hairstyles.
i think they need a wig.

they're allowed to stay out.
they're allowed to make out.
they're allowed to wear clothes.
they're allowed to hang out.

they're allowed to have boyfriends.
they're allowed to have girrlfrends.
they cant mind their business.
they're way far into frends.

they're snotty and concieted.
they think they all tht.
they make me want to puke.
but will i be like tht?

-laughs
this is damn funny.
cause it sounds like us.
anyhows. its just for funn.
dont take it to heart.
so yeahh.

ive been feeling reallyy down for the past week.
i dunno whyy im feeling this wayy.
nothing reallyy bad has happened.
but i feel damn sadd now.
maybe im being silly.

mid yrs are coming soon.
in a short month's time.
and im still in the play-my-life-awayy mood.
and i havent switched to the mugg-like-madd mood.

though i noe the consequences i'll get, if i do badly.
cause ive promise so many ppl tht i'll work hard.
do well for my mid yrs.
if not, at least show good improvments at least.
and i'll be letting all of them down if i do badly.

i noe i can do it.
i so wanted to give my best.
and show the world how much i could actually do.
but i just dun seem to be able to get into the study mood.
i noe time is running short for me.
but i shall still try my best.

______________________________________________

sometimes when i think bout the past.
i feel tht tears are flowing out of my eyes.
but im always holding them backk.
cause i noe tht i havent let myself or you down.
arghh. whateverr. im starting to think bout it agn.

so yeahh.
i shall keep myself busy.
takkairee ppl.
*cheerios*

iloveyoutoomuchtomakeyoustay.

godmusthafspentalilmoreetimeonyou*

ohs wells.
i think im gonna die todayy.
cause i got so much assignments.
and i havent like reallyy started on them.
and the worst thing is.
all those work tht havent been done are alr overdued.
for like so many days. and even weeks.

dammit.
i think its time i get started with all my work.
cause its alr april. its gonna be may soon.
and tht means. time files.
four months has been gone.
and ive like wasted all of it.
thts reallyy pure madness.

oh yeahh.
speaking of may.
i want to announce smth heree.
its a very important thing.
very very very important!!
its even moree important then getting married.

cause. on the luckiest day in may.
which is 7 may.
is a very important date.
its charissaaa`s birthdayy.
whheeee!!
-gRinS

*hint hint*
so you shld haf gotten my hint.
-laughs out loudd.

so yeahh.
takkaire.
study hard for the mid yrs.
*cheerios*

imreallyysorrybuturenottheone`

rightio.
sch started out prettehh well.
but it was reallyy bad towards the end.
very very very bad.
and i reallyy mean very BAD.

:(

we sort of had some stupid quarell.
cause we were all in a foul mood.
and charissaaa was pmsing like crazyy.
at tht exact time.
how 'exact' can tht be.
crap.

so now i understand what all of you haf thought of me.
now i noe tht everything was actually a bluff.
its reallyy bad how you can think of these things to sayy.
and its reallyy wierd how close we can be.
when you all havent reallyy haf accepted me as the way i am.

and saying tht ive been taking advantage of all of you.
and tht im treating all of you like my slaves?
oh god. how good can ur ideas get?
when did i treat you all as a slave? when did i?
its reallyy too hard for me to understand.

cause thru my conscience and heart.
i noe tht i havent been doing all tht.
and so i shall sayy this:

and i didnt hold my pride too high saying this.

i might haf been a lil too harsh on words.
cause i dunno what uve gone thru recently.
i will say sry for tht.
but i think uve all gotten smth wrong.
cause i havent been treating you all like a slave.
but i think if thts what you think.
pitying or feeling sorry for me so tht i'll not hurt myself.
and treating me like a friend and then smashing me right thru.
tht wasnt all tht i could haf thought of.
cause all of you havent understood charissaaa.
and havent accepted herr the way she is.
cause this is the wayy she is.
and now we dont owe each other anymore things.
if thts what you want.
it might just be an end to our everything.
maybe. if thts what you reallyy want.

tht shall be it.
i dun haf the mood to blogg anymoree.
and if you everr bother to read this.
i think uve gotten my point.

so yeahh.
takkaire peepos.

iveputmypridehighandiwillstillleavewithit`

ive been fighting my feelings.
ive been holding my tears backk.
i never wanted any tear to fall.
but now i think its time to let them go.

alrightt.
i shall try to be positive.
but i reallyy need to let my tears go.
so i shall go and cryy now.

ithurtstoomuchthaticantfeelit`

im getting panda eyes.
a lil pimple breakouts.
and its bad hairr dayy.
and that means. a vry vry bad thing.
charissaaa` is pmsing.
eekksss.

it can get reallyy bad if she starts pmsing.
eh. actually not reallyy larh.
charissaaa pms-es half of herr life.
does it makes a difference now that she's pmsing?
nononoo. it doesnt.
she is still as sweettt and nicee as everr. rightt?
so all you ppl shall sayy: yes. charissaaa is everr so sweettt and nicee (lols).

today was preetty exhausting.
i dunno whyy it seem so tiring.
maybe cause i stayed a lil too late ystd nightt.
i only fell asleep at bout close to 4a.m?
and woke up at 8a.m to get ready for church.

its easter sunday today.
the lil children celebrated easter todayy.
they had so much funn hunting for:
easter eggs. chocolates. sweettss. and many other stuffs.
all arnd the whole church.
its so funn and its damn cutee.

-imagine this.
lil boys and girrls wearing small lil clothes and shoes.
all running arnd the whole church.
looking for easter treats.
ohs. how cutee can that be.

charissaaa wants to join them too.
but sadly. she has alr grown up.
she's too old for all those easter treats.
further moree they'll just make herr fatt in the end.
and they will spoil herr dieting plan.

_______okayss. shall get serious now charissaaa`

and i think after this easter.
im beginning to feel God's presence in my life.
God's love is so sweettt.
God's love is so real.
God's love speaks the truth.

after all that ive experienced in my life.
after all that God haf done for me.
all the wonderous works that he haf worked in my life.
i think that i reallyy haf to give thanks for all that God haf given me.
even all the bad times that God haf put me thru.

its all and all of God's wonderful plan.
that made me feel God's presence.
its so sweettt. so real. and everr so true.
its always filled with mercy and grace.
something that is beyond words.
something that is unexplainable.

it made me realised that God is such a good God.
and im such a sinner.
but God still loves me.
and i'll always believe that.
all thru life's journey.
i'll always haf a God that will always be with me.

charissaaa shall grow up to be a strong girrl.
a girrl who loves God as much as he loves herr.
and she shall be a great living testimonial for God.
she will testify for God one day.

`alwaysgivethankswithagreatfulheart.

everything was a lil last minute todayy.
meeting ailin was last minute.
going to carolyn's church was last minute.
and many other last minute stuffs.
everything was last minute.

uhh. and after coming hme.
its even moree boringg.
and the worst thing is.

im starting my maths tuition tmr.
in church. after praise and worship.
im gonna haf maths tuition.
this is getting damn crazyy.

ohs wells.
its easter sundayy tmr.
gonna attend church agn.
im attending church frm.
fridayy to sundayy.

see. charissaaa's such a good girrl.
God loves herr. muah !
she loves God too. mwa!

so yeahh.
takkairee.
love you all lots.

butistillmissyou*
`andinoemyprinceisjustsomewherenear//.

lets try to be holy todayy.
ohs wells.

its good friday today.
its the day that jesus christ died.
for sinners like us.
on the old rugged cross.

three days frm now.
will be easter sundayy.
which is the day that jesus christ resurected.
but thats three days awayy.

so yeahh.
god loves me.
god loves you.
god loves everyone.

heree i go`

jesus loves all lil children.
all the children of the world.
red and yellow. blackk and white.
all are precious in his sightt.
jesus loves all lil children of the worldd!!

alrightt. haven i just sung a songg.
that i always use to sing when i was young.
okayss. im a lil girrl.
and god so loved me.
amen*

hehh. haven i been so holy todayy?
not playing or joking arnd.
but seriously.
its all my life's experience ive gone thru.
and i will always noe that.

god's grace and mercy is always sufficient for us.
god will nvr forsake us.
god's grace nvr fails to amazes me.
god is good. praise the lord.

for god so loved the world that he gave his one and only son.
jesus christ. and whoever believes in him.
shall not perish. but haf eternal life.
saint john 6:16

so yeahh.
takkaire peepos.

god loves you.

ohs wells.
im oohhs-sooo-superr-BORED.
and my legg hurtss.
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalaa =)

im not getting enough sleep this days.
i dunno why sleeping so much.
cause me not to get enough sleep.
and if sleeping moree makes me moree tired.
then why shld i even sleep moree.

my life is turning upside down.
and i dunno when to catch my sleep backk.
and i always tends to get tired and sleepy during lessons.
thats the worst part.
and its especially during maths lesson.
when mr ng goes too fast and when i dun catch a thing.

then -bloppsss head on the table.
*yawns*
and sleep.

uhh wells.
i just dun understand why im getting preettyyy tired this days.
its like going thru a timejet.
but my complexion seem to get better.
uhh. thats out of the point eitherr.
im going crazyy like i sayy.

alrightt.
that shall be it.
im ending heree.
rightt heree. rightt now.

`takkairee ppl. i sayy again.
-huggs

`andallisayisletthefairytalebeginn.

ohs wells.
sch haven been greatt or anything.
in fact its getting even worst now.
arghh. and i cant stand it anymore.
things haf gotten preetty complicated and deep as well.
and now that i reaslised it.
('the staff room is oohhh-sooo-small.')

and even mdn zuraida can ask me wadd happened.
i guessed it has become a bigg thing.
now that it has spreaded thru the staff room.
haix. since it has happened.
i'll just let it pass.
cause its my fault after all.

shnt broad overr all dis crap.
cause im really going crazyy wif all dis happenings.
not like dey're good.
dey're all fucking stressing me up.
but i shall be brave and get overr it.
like i said. it was after all my fault.

and im reallyy proud of myself.
cause i finally understand all the unequalities craps.
and i finally can slove the equations myself.
yayysss*
charisaa has gotten overr how to do herr maths equations.

alrightt. shall stop heree.
im like stuck writing testimonial for 6 ppl.
-laughs out loudd.

takkaire ppl.
tata.

imurbarbiegirrl`

boohoo.
haven been blogging for 2 days?
but i tink ive settled most of everything.
yeahh. i tink so. moree of less.
and i feel sooo much betterr now.

and dis is to ailin.
stop calling me barbie.
and its barbie. not babi.
understand.
-laughs out loudd.

`imabarbiegirrl

things are getting preetty deep now.
and now that i realised it.
everything is getting complicated.
and its like implicating everyone.
its getting too deep in heree.

alrightt. its all my fault.
everything is all my fault.
my fault. my fault.
charisaa's fault. herr fault.

grr. just hope that everything gets settled.
and that it'll stop inplicating others.
and im reallyy sry bout that.
(if you noe wadd im talking bout)

its getting a lil too deep in heree.

alrightt. was complaining bout trngs and stuffs yesterday.
crazyy me. stupid me. silly me.
it'll be a long time when you can start hearing my complain bout trngs again.
and i tink i'll miss complaining bout having too much trngs.

cause. its time i put a lil stop to my hockey trngs.
just for the time being.
prolly bout a month or so.
until my grades gets betterr.

i so didnt want to let go.
i still want to continue wif all my trngs.
but daddy and mummy are damn worried.
cause my results fcuking sucks.
especially my maths. the rest are alrightt.

ive got nothing to say.
and ive got nothing to lose.
i tink it'll be a good break for me.
and a time for me to concentrate and dwell into my books.
i dun reallyy haf much time anymore.

but im gonna miss my all trngs.
although they gets reallyy tough at times.
and coach gets reallyy crazyy at times.
but i noe that i am. and i will.
MISS MY TRNGS.


but rightt now.
its studying superr hard.
thats all wadd im gonna do.
and i'll be backk in trngs within a month.

ive promised daddy.
im gonna start all overr againn.
study hard.
and i will make it.

i noe i'll miss trngs.
hope that i'll still be able to catch up after a month.
uhh huhh.so yeahh.

anotherr shoutout for the sec2 hockey girrls`

one month is a short time. really short. i might be gone for good. for some of you. but. i'll still miss all of you. train hard. and study hard too. alrightt? will miss training will all of you terribly. -hugss

charisaa will be gone for now.
and
charisaa will be backk soon.

imissyou++