rightio.
sch started out prettehh well.
but it was reallyy bad towards the end.
very very very bad.
and i reallyy mean very BAD.

:(

we sort of had some stupid quarell.
cause we were all in a foul mood.
and charissaaa was pmsing like crazyy.
at tht exact time.
how 'exact' can tht be.
crap.

so now i understand what all of you haf thought of me.
now i noe tht everything was actually a bluff.
its reallyy bad how you can think of these things to sayy.
and its reallyy wierd how close we can be.
when you all havent reallyy haf accepted me as the way i am.

and saying tht ive been taking advantage of all of you.
and tht im treating all of you like my slaves?
oh god. how good can ur ideas get?
when did i treat you all as a slave? when did i?
its reallyy too hard for me to understand.

cause thru my conscience and heart.
i noe tht i havent been doing all tht.
and so i shall sayy this:

and i didnt hold my pride too high saying this.

i might haf been a lil too harsh on words.
cause i dunno what uve gone thru recently.
i will say sry for tht.
but i think uve all gotten smth wrong.
cause i havent been treating you all like a slave.
but i think if thts what you think.
pitying or feeling sorry for me so tht i'll not hurt myself.
and treating me like a friend and then smashing me right thru.
tht wasnt all tht i could haf thought of.
cause all of you havent understood charissaaa.
and havent accepted herr the way she is.
cause this is the wayy she is.
and now we dont owe each other anymore things.
if thts what you want.
it might just be an end to our everything.
maybe. if thts what you reallyy want.

tht shall be it.
i dun haf the mood to blogg anymoree.
and if you everr bother to read this.
i think uve gotten my point.

so yeahh.
takkaire peepos.

iveputmypridehighandiwillstillleavewithit`