ohs wells.
i just woke up frm sleep.
im not studying.
mm, okayss.
maybe i shld say: im not studying yet.

i dun seem to be getting into the mugg-till-i-die mood yet.
i cant seem to focus on the preperations for my exams.
and im lost somewhere, which i dunno where.
im thinking of rubbish and i dunno what to do.
i dunno what im doing.

i think im dwelling into the past,
im thinking of all the things tht happened in the past.
and i cant put my mind down to study.
theres smth in my mind tht i want to figure out.
but i dunno whats tht smth i want to figure out.

plus all the promises ive made to many ppl.
my frends, my teachers, my parents, and myself.
and if i dun do well for the coming mids,
i'll be letting down many ppl.
and ive got great consequences to bear.

its damn confusing.
i dun understand anything.
all thts happening, seems like a drama serial.
i didnt want it to be so happening.
i mean, its interesting, but it can get pretty cranky at times too.
further more, im not a drama mama.

i didnt noe growing up can be so wierd.
i didnt noe we had to all go thru this to be called grown ups.
i think theres a purpose of being called a grown up.
its like telling you tht uve graduated.
frm being a teenager, to a adult.
thts called a grown up.

arh wells.
i noe ive been talking crap up above.
ive got no idea what im talking about.
thts whyy i say.
growing up is the most confusing part of life.
growing up is the point when we're most vulnerable.

i shall take things positively, kust as ive told others to do tht.
although life can sometimes be sadd.
love can be pain, fate can be cruel, destiny can be bad.

but life will still go on, with or without you*